This is my goodbye....

Many of you do not personally know me. I've decided it's time to share my full
testimony....

The Begining:

Growing up my childhood was far from the perfect suburban lifestyle. BUT it was also very common. Alcohol and drug addiction has always had a firm hold my family. I would be lying if I said the things I've seen and heard during my childhood did not affect me to this day still. The scars are still very present. I must say even being surrounded by all the negative, love in our home was always abundant. My parents divorced when I was 13 years old. Needless to say, I felt as though the world was crumbling around me.

2 Corinthians 5:1
For we know that if our tent that is our earthly home is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house made with hands, eternal in the heavens.

Such a Drama Queen Teen:

After the divorce, I made life a living hell! A whole year after the divorce it was literally a battlefield in both of my parents homes. I was so angry for my mom leaving my dad and I was even more angry that my dad's drinking continued. As time passed the wounds of the divorce began to heal. My Mother and I formed an even closer bond than before. I was still very much a rebelious teen though. By the age of 17 the lying and drinking began.

It was all about the partying:

At the age of 17 EVERY weekend was party. Binge drinking every weekend, is so common for many teens. I was so worried about having a good time, that's all I was concerned about. Two weeks before my 18th birthday I moved out of my Mom's house ( result of a huge blowout we had ) and moved into my boyfriends house ( my now husband ). The drinking and partying continued on until I was 22 and a half.


Reality Check:

For the last year and a half I drank, it was nothing for me to kill a bottle of vodka with a friend. I NEVER was capable of holding my liquor well. By this time, my daughter was born and it wasn't until she was one and a half when my partying really started to get out of control. It started off once a month, we would send her to stay the night with her Grandparents. Then gradually it was every other weekend, sometimes even more. I got to the point that I had to convience myself that was okay to ship her off that much. Reality began to sink in then. Every time I would drink I was rarely able to remember to what happened the night before. Which actually started to scared me. I was always that crazy sloppy drunk girl that did stupid stuff. But one night while partying at the lake, my stupidity reached a whole new level. All of us girls were riding to the bathroom down the road. Two friends in the front and myself and another friend were sitting in the trunk of the SUV with our legs out the back. I told my friend to stop I was gonna jump out, we were all pretty intoxicated at this time. As she slowed down I went to jump. For some reason I thought I was capable of jumping out of the back of an SUV on a gravel road. My not so graceful self ended up doing a back flip outa the back and landing on my back. I thought it was hilarious at that time, but when I woke up and saw my battle wounds I was in shock that Road rash and bruises was all I received from my fall. I drank a few more times after that but it was never really the same after that one night.

Ephesians 5:18
Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead be filled with the spirit.

Let my transformation begin:

It took one great friend to ask me a simple question that changed my life completely. Jerry (most of you all know him as D Tru) approached me one night and and just asked if I wanted to start helping him book gigs for him. Of course I was down, I've always been a very compassionate person, willing to help anyone I can. I never would of imagined that my life was about to do a 360. Booking for a Christian Hip Hop artist literally saved my life! I would be considered another statistic if it wasn't for him. There have been quite a few amazing people in the Kingdom who welcomed me with open arms. Which is when my relationship with Christ began to grow! I've always been a believer just not a practicing one.

Saying Goodbye to the old me:

My relationship with Christ is simply AMAZING. So amazing I was willing to start living my life for him! As my relationship has grown, MY LIFE HAS JUST STARTED SHINING. Honestly though, I still struggle very much so with my past influences, and my scars. Walking with Christ is NOT easy when you have lived a life full of sin before. There are days where I have never felt so attack by evil in my life. BUT everytime I pray I get the sense of HIS love and presence, which literally stomps all those worries and stresses right back down into the firey pits of hell.

Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is -- his good,pleasing and perfect will.

My future is Oo soO bright:

Since my transformation has began, I have met so many amazing people. I've never felt so loved by so many people in my life. I want to say a big THANK YOU to those of you who have postively influenced me, shared the word, and shown nothing but love and support towards me! I'm working very hard to bring the Love of Christ into those others lives, who needs it the most. My artist, bands and dj's I book for all have the same goal, to spread HIS love. I'm priveledged to work with some amazingly talented people, and I'm going to work my booty off to make them prosper.



I know this was a long blog but thank you for taking your time out to read 'my story'. As I continue to grow watch me shine bright with CHRIST'S LOVE.

Much Love n' Blessings to all!
Tiffany